I define a friend as someone who will tell you the truth, their honest feelings, no matter what your opinion is on the subject.  Could be it's a truth you don't want to hear, but better to be upfront about it than to continually lie to someone you consider a friend.

 

A sheep?  Someone who agrees with a person's opinions to keep the status quo.  This person will then go to another person and say they agree with that person on the same subject, although their view is different than the first person.  And so on and so on for as many people are involved.

 

I try to be as honest as possible, although I will fully admit there are times I tell little white lies.  It's human nature.  I fully doubt there is a person alive who doesn't do it.  But I am not a 'yes man'.  I never have been.  I guess that's where I tend to rub people the wrong way.

 

This may be a long tale, and one of deceit, betrayal, and karmic justice.  This is a tale of G, M, A, and S.  Bear with me if you will, but I understand if you high tail it right away.

 

This began, early 2002, I believe.  Don't hold me to that – my memory isn't what it used to be.  LOL  Some stupidity in me thought people might enjoy to read the stories I'd been writing, so I started to publish them on the internet.  Granted, I'm no professional, but I think I tell a decent story. 

 

They generated some interest and I sparked up a friendship with G.  She was also into writing and somewhere along the way we began to collaborate on a series.  The series was a lot of fun, but after a time, it felt as though I was doing all the work and getting no credit for it – but, I'll get to that later.

 

Along came M, who was on a yahoo group and also wrote her butt off.  She wanted to dabble in the fan fiction genre that I had been messing around in, so I offered my encouragement.  She jumped in and we've been friends ever since.

 

Later that year, a story I was writing on my own got some interest from S, who said she enjoyed it, and with the exception of a few minor errors, it was well written.  Mind you, I'm paraphrasing...I don't remember exactly.  I asked her to point them out since I hopefully wanted to avoid making them in the future.  So, S showed me what was wrong and from that point on, she 'beta' read everything I wrote.  I found her assistance, and her friendship, invaluable.

 

Over a time, there was mention from S, little hints and comments, which caused me to think she resented my other friendships.  I began to pull away from my other friends, mainly G.  Often I was hurt by G's lack of interest, and since I told S everything and I do mean everything, I shared this with her.  You see, G would show me what she'd written and then want me to tell her (in grave detail, mind you) what I thought of it.  If she read something of mine, I'd be lucky I got a cursory, yeah, that's good.  So yeah, I'm rather sensitive anyway, so that really hurt my feelings.  Soon after sharing this w/ S, I started hearing comments about G like -- she's stifling your talents and using you. 

 

This all culminated in a couple of stories I was writing where I had wanted to use one of my characters, but G had taken for granted that she would be using one of hers.  I guess to understand my side of this, you have to know the plot and plot development and 90 percent of the story was written by me.  But, because I didn't want to hurt G's feelings, I never worked up the nerve to tell her the truth. 

 

Oh, but I managed to with S's encouragement.  At a time that was too far into it to do so.  Suffice to say, I really made a mess of things, and G felt betrayed...and rightfully so...when I finally did tell her and removed the portion she'd contributed.  We hadn't spoken since.

 

Fast forward a period of time and G was making a stink on a message board.  That's where A came in.  She felt it was her place to run to the admin and get in the middle of it.  Personally, it was no one's business but mine and G's, but before I had a chance to say so, the admin's had informed me that A had already contacted them.  Since it was too late to say anything, I just answered the admin's questions truthfully, and we worked things out amicably.  No harm, no foul, right?

 

Now, A is also a writer.  Her friend did her beta work for her.  A wrote four or five stories at a time, and her friend's life had become busy busy and she had to stop doing beta work.  A asked me to beta the last six chapters of a fic (I think it was six...not sure now) and would I be willing to help with future stories when she started new stories and P was not available?  I said sure.  Then it became public knowledge that S beta'd for me, so A asked her as well, saying both S and I could help beta if we were willing.  We said we were.  When the time came, A completely snubbed me and went to S. 

 

A couple other authors also asked S to beta for them.  They were all far more prolific then I was, but S assured me I would always come first.  But, the time between receiving chapters back from her increased steadily.  She mentioned many a time that one put deadlines on her...deadlines she resented, but worked to meet because she didn't want to upset this person.  She took more time with my chapters, she said, so she liked to get the others out of the way to concentrate on mine.  Since the other sent her several chapters a week...well, you get the picture.

 

Over a period of time, S complained more and more about the prolific nature and her deadlines set by one of the people she beta'd for – and the nagging emails that would follow if she didn't answer fast enough.  S made many complaints about this person's writing – the constant and repeated mistakes she never learned from, the stick figure characters she didn't like...hell she even made hateful nicknames for them.  But, during all of this, S seemed to devote a lot of time and energy to this person.  ~shrug~  If it was so horrible, why continue?

 

We were all a part of an rpg group as well.  M included.  Anyway, S was timid with her writing, but I offered her a slew of encouragement.  I was there by her side all the way.  She often said she never could have done it w/out me.  I guess...after a while, you don't need that person... but anyway...  Then the complaints that no one paid attention to her posts.  Even A didn't support her writing, or so S said. 

 

I could go on and on about what was said and about whom, but then I'd be here longer than I wanted to.  Basically, through all the bellyaching, I listened supportively to S and offered opinions and suggestions.  Never once did I force her to do ANYTHING.

 

Was I jealous of her relationship w/ A?  Yes, and I said as much.  Would her continued friendship with A make me love her any less?  No.  I'm not made that way and she should have known it after all we'd gone through over the years.  I wouldn't have been happy about it, but I wouldn't have given her a rough time over it either.

 

So, more time passes, and things got a little ugly on the rpg board.  Oh, do I think I was innocent in any of it?  No way, no how.  I let something that was said, or unsaid, hurt my feelings and I spoke out about it.  I should have let it go at that, but I didn't.  However, I was adult enough to apologize. 

 

Now, A and S, will not speak to me or M (for reasons I don't know). 

 

A says that I was not a good friend, because a friend would read and review anything she wrote.  You have to understand that A started to rewrite two fan fiction stories she had already published with the intent of calling them originals.  I found that a bit hypocritical...to take something based on movie characters and change the names and say it's your original idea.  Hmm...anyway, I refused to re-read and re-review them because, basically, I don't have the time and they're the same story with some variations.  It's hard enough to find time to work, take care of house and husband, and find time to write your own stuff.  She said she understood (this happened almost a year ago), but then still brings it up in her 'farewell' email.  She also said that the emails that happened after the rpg thing were nasty and uncalled for.  Ya know, I don't have copies of those emails, but I don't recall being 'nasty' at all.  At least I never personally insulted T, which A did many times...even making fun of her sexual preferences.  To me...THAT is nasty...  And I have to ask why two or three of her 'closest' friends don't read/review her stories, yet she's their biggest fans.  Hmm...double standards, I guess.

 

S, she says I've manipulated her over the years.  Hmm...by offering my opinions and suggestions?  I have never once told her she HAD to do anything.  I might have said you should blah blah...but that's it.  I have yet figured out how to twist someone's arm over the internet.  No, all I did was try to be a supportive friend to her and suggest to her ways of dealing with something that might have come up.  If she didn't want to do it, that was her choice.  As for telling her who she could or couldn't be friends with...ah...right.  I did say I was jealous of A, but that's as far as it went.  I never would have let if affect the way I felt about S.  Too bad she let it affect the way she felt about me.

 

More and more I wonder how much of what anything S said to me was true.  There were a lot of hurtful things she said about her new best friend that I wonder how she can be best friends with this person.  If said person only knew...

 

I also wonder how much being needed by these other people means to her...to the point where she'd turn her back on two people who were always there for her. 

 

Oh gawd, I'm giving myself a headache rehashing this crap, but I needed to put voice to it so I could get it behind me.  So, now several others who were in the circle of friends have also begun to ignore me and M.  Whatever.  If it's what you need to do to get you through the day.

 

Personally, I don't think either I or M deserve the treatment we're getting.  We'd done nothing any more heinous than the others have done.  Still, they think they're above it all.  Huh...just take a good look at your friends, A &S.  I've seen the things ya'll have said....and it ain't pretty.

 

Oh, the karmic justice?  I guess this was my payback for the way I treated G.  Yeah, it was a real big wake up call.  I have gotten in contact w/ G and we're on speaking terms again.  I offered my sincere apologies for what I'd done...and she offered hers for her part.  So, maybe there is a lot to be said for getting back what you put out?   

 

S.

Hey You!!! So happy you visited. Missed you. I am also happy you got these things worked out a little bit! You just can't please some folks no matter what you do. Just so your best interests are at heart, one can't expect any better. I love you!!!

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